Feelings

Just so you know I have had a bitter/sweet day today...So many things have messed up and I have so much money that I owe that I feel like I have a gigantic bolder on my shoulders weighing me down to where I can't walk on the path called "Life" anymore. I have to crawl. This alone has gotten me completely destroyed in every aspect of my life. Sometimes I feel like God could easily take this bolder and throw it off a cliff so that it is no longer on my shoulders. But what will I learn from that? That is like going to school one day trying to prepare yourself for a huge test that you are going to have to take. You get into class...and your teacher/professor smiles and says "Well class, there is no exam today I took it for you guys. So you all have the day off." Even though that is a pretty sweet gig what have you learned? Only one word comes to mind...nothing. This can never be good. What if that test was on how to change a tire and you didn't take it? Then the next day you had a blow out and no one knows how to fix it?? You are pretty much screwed for lack of a better word. So I guess that is why God will not lift this heavy load off my shoulders. He wants to teach me something. I just wish that I had a few band aids because this path is rocky and since I am crawling...I am getting hurt pretty badly. So I was wondering...will you be my band aid?