Coming Home

So...I came home today...yep...I came home today because this week is my spring break. So far so good. Not sure how everything will be come next Sunday but I can hope for the best right? Everything has changed so much. I look at my neices and nephews and see how much they have grown and I feel almost regretful for missing most of their lives at this moment. I desire so much to watch them grow. To watch their views on life change as the days grow shorter. But I am not able to do that. Not at the moment anyways. This alone depresses me. But...it's okay. I look at my sister and see how much she has changed in just the few months that I have been gone not knowing what has happened to her. It hurts to know this. I look at my parents...and see how much they have changed. How I miss them when I am away but when I am with them can't wait to get away. I look at my bother and see so much in him. The way he has changed has been such a shock. But then...I realize that none of them have really changed that much...but it is I who have changed. I have grown to be the person God wants me to be. I have grown in ways I never knew I would. I have made friends that have changed my life in such a way that I will never be the person I once was. Yes...everyone has changed but it is I who have changed the most. The question is...do I like the person I have changed to? How does anyone answer this question?? How am I suppose to take my mind off of how much the world has changed and focus on how much I have changed?? How do I do this?!?!?!? These are all questions that I do not have the answer to yet...but I think that the more that I change...the faster these answers will come to me...maybe...what do you think?