Realizing That There Is More To Realize

So, I just recently clicked onto my facebook page and saw this link that I had totally forgotten that I had. I had forgotten that my friend had asked me to get one of these blog things so I could follow her and read all about her day. I decided to click on it and I realized how much my friend writes. I felt so bad that I hadn't read any of them but really didn't want to read any of them anyways. Atlas my guilt overcame my laziness and I decided that I would read her most recent ones just to be able to say that I did.

With this being said I scrolled down and began to read. Little did I know how much her blogs would touch me. Some of them made me hurt...others made me laugh...a few made me smile...and all of them inspired me to write. I shortly realized that I am not the person I thought I was. I use to consider myself a "great" friend. I would always be there when when someone needed help and I would try to "fix" their problems. But reading my friends blog I realized...I am not a "great" friend at all...I am not even a "good" one. I had promised my friend that I would read her blogs but I never did. I was too lazy to just quickly click on, read it, and make her day by telling her how good it was. I couldn't encourage her to write more because I never read anything that she wrote. I remember that everyday she would tell me about her awesome new blog she wrote and how I would really like it and I would respond "Oh yea...I will read it later..." with no intentions of even attempting to read it. I am not a "good" friend. I am not writing this for you to show me sympathy. I really don't want it. I am simply writing this because I realized there is a lot more to realize. There is a lot more to being a friend then just being there...you have to show you care. Sometimes that means putting your own laziness aside and taking time to show what they mean to you...even if that means reading their blogs. :)

Earlier today that same friend came to me because she was stressed out. All I could think about was how upset I was at her over something that was so stupid. I couldn't be there for her because I was so stuck on how I should "get back" at her. This is not a friend. Not a friend at all. I learned so much about her today when I read her blogs that I even cried a little bit. So if she is reading this I just want you to know that I am REALLY sorry. And I would like to tell you how amazing your blogs are. They are truly inspirational. Well...I think that's it for right now. Sorry if this bored you. :) Maybe it will get better as I continuing blogging.